This few days I know I have let lots of people worry about me. I have told Lawernce not to contact him. But I know some people still care about me. But I want to be alone. Its a hard time for me this few days. I have just quarrel with my aunty last Saturday. Sometime I really don't understand why my aunty can do things that she promise us and never do and she also side her younger son than everytime said is mine wrong. I that day I talk to her about something and than she tell me and go cut my hair on Sunday and I said I must see whether Lawernce can wait for me and than we can go down Fo Tang together. Than she said that he is my gay partern and whatever lah. I really sad because it really hate my feeling. I not don't want go cut hair. Is there I don't have time and money. I want to save money than go cut my hair.
I now don't want take money from her just because of this type of things. I know its hard for her that she everyday have to give me money and support me. Thats why I want to save money first. I lots of things need to buy lor. Somemore I don't want to let them know and make them worried. I am very tired. I have to work and support myself now for other things. My phone bills I have to pay and other things. I want to save money and buy my shoe and other stuff. When her son talk and cut the conversation and i scolded him than my aunty scold me because I scold her son. If I am the one who do that she sure will scold me. I didn't let anyone know and this week I told my Student Council Member that close to me not to find me. I also feel upsad. Even I told Lawernce not to contact just because my aunty said that word. I feel very upsad. No one know how I feel. I even told Lawernce that I maybe will drop up from BXB. Maybe I think I need to work. I really don't know what to do. I know Lawernce was very angry and upsad becuase that day I told him that not contact me. But I don't want to tell him is because when he talk to me those tone that I find that I don't really like. I don't think he can help me up. Haiz.
Someone tell me what should I do??
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